a child waiting for a lesson

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1 of a particular view of contortion of meaning pressed against the body like pressing a balloon of detecting a pre-existing edge already in place of self-injury s of stereotypy of body that is not thinking of itself of aversion of non-committal action of erosion Breaking broken s that are parts of games Breaking open s of rerouting / interruption Hand is a thread Recalls loss Private communiqué Fixed of ingenue of earthbound selfhood in one s mimicry of of of of of non- of the no. the Direct gaze as Sidelong gaze as toward sensation of gesturing beyond its boundary Infinite of friendly approach of opening of egg shells, bringing hands together lap, in an unconscious of a child waiting for a lesson stuffing meat in cracking open exploration committal action of the yes sheet 1

2 of clumsy, private burlesque at the end of the day. of disillusionment of suspicious movement A, with slight variation, that recurs four times s of subtle marrow of unmitigated glory of averting shame of surrendering presence and agency of triangulated desire of tilting to hear the breeze of washing yourself of crime of washing yourself if you are an animal-animal of holding out the remote of gazing at the remote of seeking the remote of realizing the remote exists in you already that states i don t Entering force field have to Frustrated spatial (limits of the body discovery ) Attempt, something next to a of not letter of writing the unsendable letter of archiving the unsent letter Strength s of the falling foot of contorting to adjust of slaking a long-felt thirst of resisting sleep of owning one s breath or trying s highway sending a sheet 2

3 of realizing a terrible blunder Simple s of morning of seeing the egg upright in its cup of eyes closing to sunlight of leaning against a column, waiting of holding up a hand as if it can make the bus stop of futilely attempting to block sound of re-entry problems of torpidity of atlas of atlantis of dangling senses of looking for something one doesn t know one is looking for of seeing as a sudden intrusion of the too porous open eye of one can be broken into as one moves out of oneself through the gaze, trespassing one s own eye, towards the other One is invisible--not flesh--as a voyeur of impenetrability of the given (laden) surface of meaning cannot be pressed out of the body like oil of looking into the car window that is threatening of standing up in the grass next to the highway of striking two things together like flint, merging sliding in order to open or pry apart prying apart is so close to opening of looking upward for absolution or deliverance of running inside one s mind while remaining fixed in physical space of willful ignorance of generous surrender of sublimated yearning causing a bitter lashing out of nothing of incompatibility but then of a smudge becoming a spot of a smear of s becoming an arrow sheet 3

4 s of escape s of atlantis cannot happen when one is not walking somewhere of walking towards the thing that is probably not atlantis of false starts of a dead end of being out of sight of dejection as static of denial as a form of enclosure of not recognizing a face of pretending to admit something of refusal as refuge of a dead end pantomime s that never finish themselves of mobile community Self-contained Not looking outward of not stumbling nor encountering surprise: of knowing Collecting-your-abundance No danger Adding rather than subtracting : no more negative definitions of noticing, stutters as if to go towards the thing but goes down the stairs Down the stairs Stumbling across a plain of s s of the wall-less status of seeing Revolving around eye that rolls away Serious lab work No no no not you or you of not wanting to want family of hungry s eating itself Holding, holds and releases by holding carrying made while striding sheet 4

5 s of pride of the butterfly clamp a of chaos, flight and the thing that lands and stings the thing that bothers you gets born across your lips Fickle agitation The of acknowledging that the body is vulnerable when imagining the world differently A chair, the arbitrary frame of things. I am violent against the border. In the mundane fiber, i throw off my shoe, as in a marketplace of stiff substitutions in which one of dreams integration wreck Finding yourself in a dream at the moment you are leaving it s For there to be direction, for angles to be made, disparate objects slap to form a single surge away from the original landscape, the first point of origin. After the miniature crash, a particular view is gaged this is the shape of choice, the aggression of precision Aspirational s of acting out of realizing one is not at home of acute ligatures of being disappointed by one s own body of derailment of slamming into oneself in a mirror, and the mirror shattering, so that one s image disperses of humor of grace A that revolves of not going loosely along the lines of something soft pretending to be hard of locating a direction of expressive matter detaching brusquely from the original landscape propelled by rage of imagining the world of talking to self sheet 5

6 of the familiar strange of the aftermath of a miniature crash of pride The of a body that is not thinking of itself of a particular view of precision of slamming into oneself in a mirror shattering, so that one s image I want to show you of double looking of contortion Can i eat my of against the a balloon forgetting Oh this of of strings of awe Shaping the space you are in s Acting like you are not already caught mirror, and the disperses? meaning pressed body like pressing Riding the motion of s like a wave of waiting to be interrupted Interrupting s of of staring into space! is very strange Hair made by hair of the extra limb of an extension of exteriority to meet the insides of a new body of substituting membranes of contact with rubber resembling a shift in tone an old sheet 6

7 Moving like you will not be caught s Assuming that you will be caught s of can not now or ever get caught of not knowing whether the chair in one s bedroom is the same as the chair in one s office at work of realizing that the public and the private spheres are collapsed structures of invisible schizophrenia of a displaced emotion of disrupting a contained of not putting oneself in a position of hiding of not fitting into the space of evening of miniature rage of a forced imbalance of touching without touching and humming in order to do it where the hummer hovers Dumb object reading us as its destination and rolls back on itself humming of noticing, stutters as if to go towards the thing going downstairs Down the stairs Not this not this not this Through refusals (borders, reinforcements of fences, brinks, brims) We find definition the refugee is vague and invisible porousness is contagiousness stacked membranes like a cloth, not to get enmeshed Gesturing through refusals (borders, reinforcements of fences, brinks, brims) : the hands fidget like slow-blowing underwater weeds, their electric filaments on hair. Wrenched, the head stops. Impenetrability of the given (laden) surface Surface s s not legible, but touchable s of resisting of improvising of getting personal in front of an audience sheet 7

8 of not going loosely along the lines of something of something soft pretending to be hard of locating a direction of bashing angles of odd slates slapping of forming a single surge of expressive matter detaching brusquely from the original landscape s of elevation, lightness and levity of the aftermath of a miniature crash This is a chair, the arbitrary frame of things Violent against the border In the mundane fiber, i throw off my shoe, as in a marketplace of stiff substitutions in which one dreams Of A Stark Removal Of A Cold Retreat So As To Recuperate A Palpable Sense Of What One Has Retreated From Of A Fault In The Stretch Of Prompt Language Of A Smudge Becoming A Spot Of A Smear Of s Becoming An Arrow Of False Starts Of Lying To Oneself Of A Dead End Of Being Out Of Sight Of Dejection As Static Of Denial As A Form Of Enclosure Of Not Recognizing A Face Of Pretending To Admit Something Of Refusal As Refuge sheet 8