Grief is like the ocean, it comes in waves, ehhing and flowing. Sometimes the water is calm, and sometimes it is overwhelming. All we can do is learn to swim. Vicki Harrison
The finding out the CANCER was malignant seeing you in that hospice SO skinny, immoble, inaudible, laying on that bed is a feeling that still takes my breath away knowing
of that you were GONE after I tucked you in Thomas would never see you again watching you go down that dirt hole knowing I would NEVER hug you again
I believed there was a way even when the doctors told us the cancer had spread to all organs I HOPED you would talk and smile again as soon as you saw me in that hospice D
I called your cell phone a month later hoping it was a just nightmare and you would answer it A part of me prayed that Julie and Lili coming to see you, would bring you back to normal. enial
why d why didn why didn t I pa why didn t I kiss he ngerwh why didn t I hold on tighte
y did GOD do this to us? y more attention to her? r? idn t I ASK more questions? t the doctors DO MORE? r more?
BARGA God, IF you cure mom, I ll devote my life to you!
WHAT IF I had paid more attention to her symptoms?!?! IF I could just tell her how much I LOVE HER JUST... once... more IF I could just have ONE MORE DAY!! INING
i can t stop crying i m not hungry i want to be alone i won t get out of bed epress
God, just take me please life has no meaning anymore i don t feel like talking why does it hurt so much?
D enial Anger BARGAINING depression
one day I woke up B U T... i was NOT okay. I NEEDED HELP! i HAD to find myself again.
... and so I did. Accep The memories we made together will ALWAYS be with me
She is finally painless tance I wake up with her and SMILE! She is in everything I do I know she is my angel
SHE IS her light is the legacy we carry on my unequaled love for coffee in the songs I sing and hum all day in the smell of grass after rain my profound dislike of cooking my sarcasm and sense of humor my newly acquired love for thrifting my creativity and love for art my passion for life my in my strength and perseverance in my impatience for waiting on others in my eagerness to travel and see the world in my loyalty to my friends and family in every loud laughter with a bit of snorting in every hug I give Thomas my backbone, half of my heart and forever in me. - Carol Patelli Ribeiro
The sound of her soft, mellow voice sometimes plays in my head and sends chilling goose bumps down my spine. More often than not, I force myself to remember what she sounded like in fear that I ll someday forget. That s a foolish thought considering her laugh has been imprinted into, not only my brain, but also everyone and anyone she has ever come in contact with. She had that abrupt, full-bellied laugh that was contagious to any listening ear. I think that s one of the most wonderful ways to be remembered- through the sound of your laughter. She had no censor when it came to the volume in which she laughed- I think that s wonderful, too. I ve been the opposite for as long as I can remember; I have a quiet, more reserved laugh. I ve come to understand that, not only do we- as individuals- need our own to survive, but the people around us may need our laughter, too. So let us all laugh; laugh loudly, laugh genuinely, abruptly and full-heartedly. - Lili Patelli -